A few things transcribed from my notes app ---- Emily whisked the cream too much and it turned into butter Eric used to be roommates with earthman of Boulder, CO. They lived together for 8 months then had a falling out. Dream blunt rotation with the farm animals Nightmare blunt rotation with the farm animals She seems like the kind of person who watches videos on 2x speed Andrew garfield was the best spiderman "Well behaved dogs rarely make history" The goats milk I milked that weighed 33.3 g

September 5, 2021 On the truth “Within the word we find two dimensions, reflection and action, in such radical interaction that if one is sacrificed—even in part—the other immediately suffers. There is no true word that is not at the same time a praxis. Thus to speak a true word is to transform the world.”  Pedagogy of the Oppressed, Freire “The tenet of the essential unity of all that exists precedes every act of knowledge, and every act of knowledge presupposes the tenet of the unity of the world. The ideal — or ultimate aim —of all philosophy and all science is TRUTH. But "truth" has no other meaning than that of the reduction of the plurality of phenomena to an essential unity —of facts to laws, of laws to principles, of principles to essence or being. All search for truth —mystical, gnostic, philosophical and scientific — postulates its existence, i.e. the fundamental unity of the multiplicity of phenomena in the world. Without this unity nothing would be knowable.” Meditations on the Tarot TRUTHLINESS IS NEXT TO GODLINESS "Before we can receive the entire truth about anything," wrote my teacher Ann Davies, "we have to love it." ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ Trying to get high off lies is an eleven year old “testing the limits” Whats a truth he asked "The opposite of a lie"

September 1, 2021---------- Amy says that Lucy used to be a lesbian but is dating a man now, two steps forward one step back am I right This sound feels like the sound of a train that you can still hear in the distance -RZA (on film/scoring) “The audience is narrow but its deep as hell” One of the best feelings ever, the 10 comments praising the secret youtube vid I posted. Mr ammary made us read denial of death Sophie the dog adopted Roxy the goat when Roxy was rejected by her mom What wealth is.. its laziness. This aspiration to never have to work ever again. Capitalism engenders laziness. Do people love me? Do I get people stoned? (“So stoned” god said) Things that get me stoned: One time Kelpie said that carbon really wants to liberate iteself The mountain range on the left as you ride up to Portland for a good minute outside your window you get UUUUUUUUUUUU

excerpt from rob brezny's free will astrology

August 22, 2021---------- “Concentration without effort is the transposition of the directing centre of the brain to the rhythmic system —from the domain of the mind and imagination to that of morality and the will. The great hat in the form of a lemniscate which the Magician wears, like his attitude of perfect ease, indicates this transposition.” from thought to action — the magician “It is the profound silence of desires, of preoccupations, of the imagination, of the memory and of discursive thought. One may say that the entire being becomes like the surface of calm water, reflecting the immense presence of the starry sky and its indescribable harmony. And the waters are deep, they are so deep! And the silence grows, ever increasing. . what silence! Its growth takes place through regular waves which pass, one after the other, through your being: one wave of silence followed by another wave of more profound silence, then again a wave of still more profound silence. . . Have you ever drunk silence? If in the affirmative, you know what concentration without effort is. “ He who finds silence in the solitude of concentration without effort, is never alone. For silence is the sign of real contact with the spiritual world and this contact, in turn, always engenders the influx of forces. This is the foundation of all mysticism, all gnosis, all magic and all practical esotericism in general. Meditations on tarot

August 18, 2021---------- Some tarot spread, brief notes on divine I think the devil has something to do with earthly desires succumbing to it, taoism something or other or maybe divine dark energy theres no bypassing how the devil shows up in our life, in us and times when we were the devil in someone else’s illusion 4 versions of an apology text in my notes app 4 variations of an apology letter In which I recognize my culpability and I didn’t mean any hurt but also why the fuck did you tell her but also I am so tired of me and why can’t I just keep my mouth shut and my head down and mind my damn business… ISO the kinda friends who love with grace and objectivity though the roots may get mangled (indubitably) theres always room to up-pot into something roomier, more mature. All this to say: fuck la. I kept time traveling to when… (Orig Oct 2020) wewere laughing about how you held the chopsticks all wrong While our polite friend quietly reprimanded us ~

Feb 23, 2019-----Hello everyone! This week has been pretty good. Last weekend, me and my family went to Banff for 2 nights. While my dad and brother skiied, my mom and I hung out/shopped. I got a ring with a moonstone on it :)) I've also decided to lose some weight. I'm not overweight or anything, but it would make me more confident. Gonna start working out and cutting down on calories. Nothing major. Let's see how long this lasts. Other than that, life has been usual. Have a gr8 day!

Feb 9, 2019-----HIIIIII! It's Saturday, and suuuuuper cold outside, so I stayed inside all day. I've been working on this website for a while, and created a new section called 'My Lair'. The format is very different than my main section, and I just wanted to try out new things. I also didn't want to make a totally new website to do so. Anyways, I surpassed 10,000 views! WOW! Thanks to everyone who viewed my site. I know probably no one is reading this, but still. THXXXXXXX :DDD

Feb 4, 2019-----Finals went okay, and I started my new semester a couple days ago. I have LA, math, design studies, and art. It's not too bad, but design studies is soooooo boring, and he never even told us what we were doing throughout the course. UGHHHHH! I tried to switch classes, but I was late for my opportunity to switch. I went to counselling after 3rd period, trying to move to design studies to communication tech. I was late, so I couldn't get in (which was totally my fault), but the counseller was crabby and abrupt for no reason. I took like, 3 minutes out of her day, and she acted like she was doing me a favor. Girl, you get PAID to help me. I'm also not excited for math, but I am really happy I have art! :))))). Anyways, today was suuuper cold, so my mom just let me/my brother stay home. I'm spoiled lol. I just sketched while watching Joe Rogan podcasts/Shane Dawson videos all day. Hellz yah! I also updated my homepage, and will probably add more updates soon, so stay tuned. Byeeeeee!

Jan 23, 2019-----I have finals this week I completed my social yesterday, and only got a 72% but it's fine. I have biology tomorrow AND I'M SO NERVOUSSSSSS !!! I have to study all day today, cuz the final is worth a lot. I can't wait until I'm done highschool, but then I have to deal with adult responsibilities >:(. Maybe I'll just live in my parents basement for the rest of my life But anyways, I had a nice day yesterday; after my social final, I went thrift shopping. I got some clothes and a bracelet with rainbow DOLPHINS :)))

Jan 16, 2019-----School is super booorringg but watevr. We only have like, 3 more days until exam break. Anyways, not much has been going on. Have just been staying home and doing nothing. Still not motivated to do anything, just tired. Been trying to put photos from my camera onto my chromebook BUT ITS STUPID!!! I was uploading a bunch of photos, and my laptop was about to die. And guess wat??? The usb plugin and my charger plug in a right beside each other! So I couldn't have my USB in while it was charging. When I took the USB out, it hecking got stuck and broke. See? My life is sooooo hardd. I don't know how I survive. Also, I' ve been really into psychedelic artwork lately, mainly posters from the 60's. Not much has peaked my interest other than that. ONE MORE THING...I've recently discovered these smiley thingies. They are so cute. Have a nice day

Jan 6, 2019-----It's 12:38 AM, and I haven't started my homework yet. >:(. I'm procrastinating, and haven't done anything all day, except lay around. I watched Stranger Things for the 3rd time, and watched Back To The Future for the hundreth time. TBH, I don't like watching new movies. I am so sensitive, so I get too attached to the movie, and my mood changes for the rest of the day. So I just stick to watching the same stuff all the time. Anyways, I also made a GifyPet based on my BEAUTIFUL dog Mr.Noodles. I am gonna probably make a section on here dedicated to him, but I can't upload pics I took on here without them turning sideways. Ehh, I'll figure it out. Byeeee, gotta do homework now >:(

Jan 5, 2019-----UUUUGHHHHHH!!! School starts on Monday :'( I'm so not excited. Thankfully we only have 2 weeks, but then exams start. I also have to finish my homework (I haven't started yet), but I'll be fine. I'm not failing any classes (yet), but still. Anyways, I'm going to make the best of my last day. I've been watching Stranger Things, and have just been relaxing. I love that show, can't wait for the new season. I also watched this really good movie called 'The Standford Prison Experiment' on Netflix, I really recommend it. That's all that's going on in my life, thx 4 reading.

Jan 2, 2019-----School starts soon, and I'm dreading it. :( But I had a good day today! :))) I went to the mall, and looked around a bit. I don't generally go to the mall, but I got a gift card to Ardenes from my cousin. Didn't find anything I liked there (yet), so I decided to thrift shop. I felt kinda bad, since I don't wanna spend all my Christmas money. I found 3 really cute necklaces tho (only 8 bucks all together)!!! One is a chain choker, one is a beaded blue choker, and the other is a necklace with a rock on it (idk what type of rock). I've been wanting to get more accessories to spice up my outfits. I'm always buying clothes, and I still don't feel satisfied (yayy consumerism!!!), so I think getting jewlery with make my outfits feel more complete. Hope ur having an nice day.

Dec 31, 2018-----It's New Years Eve, 10:25 pm, and I'm sitting at home doing nothing. I played videogames on a 90s Nintendo console for about an hour, and it was fun. But I really wanted to go to a house party, I've never been to one. I feel like I'm missing out. Most of my friends don't partake in that kind of stuff. No ones fault, not even mine! I've been feeling like I'm wasting my teenage years away. I've had a lot of life experiences, but I still feel like somethings missing. I went to see zoo lights with my friends a couple days ago, I saw my best friend yesterday, and I'm going to my friends birthday tomorrow. But I want more. I want to party!!! UGHHHHHH. Anyways, tomorrows a new year. I don't have any resolutions, cuz those are dumb. If you want to achieve something, just do it. Don't just wait for a date to pursue goals....maybe I should try to be more positive in the new year. Would help me with my confidence, and make me more approachable to people. Anyways, happy New Years!

Dec 26, 2018-----Hi! Christmas was really great! I went to my aunt's house, and had a really good time; I was happy to see them, cuz they're really sweet. Just chilled the whole time. My cousin and I watched 'Bird Box' on netflix, and it was SOO good; it's about a monster that makes people kill themsleves when they look at it. But I'm never gonna watch it again cuz it was sad. Apololyspe movies scare me in general. This one wasn't so bad cuz it wasn't realistic, but I don't ever want to watch 'Threads' or something cuz that's too real. Ewww nuclear war!!!! My aunt and cousins also complimented my art. My cousin wanted me to draw her, so I did. I didn't think it was good, but they liked it. Gave me an ego boost. The rest of the night was gr8, and we slept over. Nothing interesting enough to type about anymore. For Christmas I got a jacket, a sweater, a sketchbook, a candle, gift cards, a Mac Demarco 2 CD, and a few other things. Yaayy!!

Dec 24, 2018----- Merry Christmas Eve! I haven't been doing much over my break yet, except doodling and watching the Joe Rogan podcast. Particularly his conspiracy videos; the ones about the new world order and AI technology freak me out. I watched an Alex Jones documentary about the Bohemian Grove today, and it was okay. Alex Jones is a crazy dude, but I kinda like him haha. Also, my family and I are going to my grandpa's for dinner. Nothing else is going on besides that. Happy Holidays!

Dec 20, 2018-----I'm in my communication technologies class right now. During biology, we dissected a pig heart and I licked it. Good memory. My teacher didn't care that much, and the heart was clean, so hopefully I won't get sick. I'm also excited because christmas break starts tomorrow! Yayy!!! :)

Dec 18, 2018-----First blog post!! If you read by 'about' section, you already know I have another website, called VenusFlyTrash. It took me a really long time to make it, since I experimented a lot, and I deleted most of it. Anyways, today was okay. I ate butternut squash soup and I pet my dog. HoW IntErEstINg!!! Hope your day was good, person reading this. byeeeee!! :D